Monday, September 28, 2009

Too much love? Perhaps. (Part 2)

As I had written in the previous post (part 1), everyone has different answers. I shall still leave your decision to you, and I will share mine.

As this topic will be long, I had decided that this topic will be divided into a few parts. I have not done enough research of my own to determine it, as I had said that this will be a long topic, I will separate the research to another part.

What I have known so far about giving or committing too much love is not a good thing to do. A friend of mine saw my MSN Messenger personal message, she replied me with, "There is such thing as "too much love" which equals to, to spoil love." I have the same thought as her, and I think that too much love not only spoil love but also spoils friendship. One important thing to bare in mind is that, "too much of anything spoils everything." For example, you are out for a dinner alone. You went to a restaurant and order a bowl of chicken sup and there is a small bottle of pepper and soy sauce. Let's say that the bowl of chicken sup is a girl and the pepper and soy sauce is boyfriend's love and father's love. If you put soy sauce (father's love) aside, and over added the pepper (boyfriend's love), the sup will taste very peppery and spicy that it spoil the taste of the sup. Let's put it this way, boyfriend's love was over added, so it will spoil the girl, now you see my logic I am trying to prove without a scientist's license?

Too much love will make a relationship bored as it had been stated in the previous post. Why does it make people bore? Now, how would you feel if your father keeps calling you to help him with this and that every 3 minutes? You get bored, do you not? How will you feel, if your boyfriend keep on saying I love you, and keep trying to prove that he loves you very much and kiss you and touch you? You get bored and frustrated easily, do you not? Bare this in mind, a simple and very short phase, "too much, too bore." Reckon? And this, "too little, too bad." Reckon too? You might think, too little? you mean too little love then too bad? then and if I give too much love, then too bore? What are you trying to prove little unlicensed scientist? I should say, relationship is exactly similar to food, as in 99.99%. For example, adding a little too much of salt in a dish makes it salty, but a little too little salt makes the food not tasty enough. A moderate amount is always recommended to anything, which includes human body absorption, fertilizer for a plant and even chemicals for a certain experiment.

Some might say, how do you expect me to know how much love am I giving her? Do you have some sort like a meter to tell like how many "LPH (Love per Hour)" measurement or something weird that no one has heard before? No. There is nothing like that. We humans know how much we are giving, we know it by feelings.

Think, how do I know when my feeling tells me that it is too much of love that I had given her?

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Too much love? Perhaps.

Is there actually such thing as too much love?

Is it possible for someone to give too much love to their significant other? Is there actually such a thing? In a beginning of a relationship, normally guys are the one who does all the work like asking to go for a date, movie and dinner, or maybe a night out somewhere romantic, like to the park for picnic. But commonly, venue for a date is over at the shopping mall, or a dinner over at a nice warm restaurant with the "dating decoration" and much much more.

As time goes by in a relationship, it is hard to say that the guy will continue to stay with their significant other, or the girl might even look for another person. Why is this so? It is difficult to tell when the guy or the girl will eventually look for another partner. Is it because they are bored of each other? or, is there such a thing as out of love to be shared? This whole post is about love, are they giving too much of it or they just does not want to share it?

As I had mention earlier that, in the beginning of a relationship, they go for a date. That is when they will decide whether to really commit into this relationship or not. Once they have decided, they will start to give their love, talking sweet things, making each date romantic, saying words that make their significant other to drown in their love. Saying I love you or I miss you is actually a very special word. But saying too much of it makes it bored, the more you hear it, the more common it gets. Young couples those that a lot, if that why they do not last long in a relationship? No, there are also many issues to be taken into consideration, like what they do, their personality, why do they want to get committed into this relationship in the first place and much more. In this topic, I will only focus on "giving too much love" in a relationship.

As I had stated above this paragraph, saying too much I love you or I miss you will make the word sound boring in the near future. It is just like giving too much love. Does love really have limit? Is there such a thing like, I have used up too much love, therefore, there will not be anymore love left, that is the reason why we broke up? Is this true that, we can love longer if we love the person we can live with and we cannot love much longer if we love the person that we cannot live without? Is giving too much love really does kill off the limits?

Everyone will have different answers, so, I shall leave you with your own answers.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Alone Again Naturally.

Once I thought that I found someone to spend some time with, talk to, filling up every lonely night, it fade away later on.

Am I really that bad, that no one wants to talk to me? Or is it just me thinking too much? Maybe they dint receive my message? Or maybe they really don't want to reply me? Why? Am I really meant to be alone?
Every time I thought that I have a new friend to talk to, they don't reply me. Am I annoying? Really? I guess I am... I guess I am..... = (

It just go off slowly, naturally, again and again, and I am alone again naturally... naturally....

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Lonely is the night.

What lonely days I'm living in. It feels as if you're all alone in this world, without someone to love, without someone to walk side by side, without someone to lean on, without sometime to do secret laughing. =\ What a life.
I wish I can find someone good. Someone my type, someone that care for me like her own self, someone that will be with me when I'm feeling lonely.

Lonely am I.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Study life.

Study study study.... Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks...
What else can you do?
I think.. I know... But I don't know.
I am so lifeless...
And it will go on...
And on...
And on...

Friday, May 29, 2009

Business

I wanted to be a doctor. Because of financial problem, I decided to do engineering. But even if I take engineering, i wont be doing engineering job, I will be doing business. My father wants me to do it, and 2 China guys too. I guess I can't really choose what I wanna do. =/

My life is just like that, nothing interesting about it. No girlfriend yet. Still searching.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Fishing with Japanese cousin.

After fishing at 3.10 am in my auntie's house in Puchong.


My Japanese cousin and another cousin, during fishing.

My cousin with the fish he caught by luck, 4.7 kg fish.

This fish was soo unlucky that, when it was swimming across my cousin's hook, my cousin pull it. He was soo lucky to caught the fish in its ass. =.=" He's pulling the hook out of its ass.



My Japanese cousin, came down for holiday before starting to work.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Lean On Me.

We all need somebody to lean on. Lean on me, when you're not strong, and I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on, for it won't be long, till I'm gonna need somebody to lean on.

I'm now still waiting for an email from IMU, that email will determine whether what course will I be doing. Hopefully it will be a good news.

Traveling from choices, decisions and no where, now, I ended up in a new road. A new life, new decisions, new choices and now here. Is the sufferings gonna end? I wonder. Is my life gonna be what I wanted it to be? Is my life time partner gonna show up soon? What will I be doing by then? What am I by then? Who am I? Will I be someone I know or will I be me? Am still wondering. The old me was leaved behind years ago, which can never be reach again, never.

The question is not why, but when.

I like this quote, from a friend (no names here)
Don't love someone that you could live with, love someone you couldn't live without.
Makes much much sense.

Chinese new year is just a few days away. I wonder how will it be like. Will it be better? Hope so.


Is this the reason that makes you move on? In that case, I will be the reason.
Is this that keeps you awake? In that case, I will be the sleeping pill.
Is this why you are worry about your life? In that case, I will be the worrier.
Is this why you are afraid? In that case, I will be the painter.
Is this why you need someone to talk to? In that case, I will be the forest.
Is this why you slow down? In that case, I will be the plane.
I will be anything you need. But I need you to make me be that anything you need. That's how it should move, in a circle.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Society =(

Society.

Humans are changing towards time. The so call "modern humans" in this 21th century is getting from bad to worst and will grow from worst to ...... (something worst than worst, like satan). I realize that they change to what we call selfish, money-minded and pride. "Modern humans" had change, now, they want more money, and want to make themselves known famous to others, they want to show people that they are rich, they are good, they are smart, they are perfect.

I will ask you these questions;
  1. How smart are you?
  2. How rich are you?
  3. How famous can you be?
It is more and more nonsense to me for human to act like that. Why? Why? Why? Why must humans be like that?
You will tell your friends, your love ones, that you will protect them no matter what. Now tell me, a building suddenly goes on fire, what will you do. I know what kind of answers I'll get. But I'm certain that you will be the first to run out. That will be my 90% guarantee. Now, do you call that caring or scared or bullshit?

Be a human, be the truth and make the difference.

Blame yourself, but not others! You did something wrong, and immediately you blame others to cover up your mistakes. What kind of friend is that? Let me ask you one question, all of a sudden you got blame for something that you dint do, how will you feel? Please do ask yourself this question. I don't understand, how can a friend betray a friend? how can a good friend betray a good friend? how can a best friend betray a best friend? I'll leave this questions pending for psychologists. Betray is one of the worst thing that you can't do to your friends. I really don't know what I can say about it. It is just too ..... evil. I have just no words to describe it.

What is there to hide while the truth will still be release later on?

Money is the main cause of mostly everything evil on earth. Betray, hatred, enviousness, selfishness, false hope, false happiness and anything else you can name.
Money is indeed very important in our life, we need it to survive, but, do we actually need that much? I don't think so. Money has cause people to lose their friendship, lose their family, lose their love and lose everything. Money is just a piece of paper. It is true that with money, you can get most of the things you want. But, can money get you true friendship? can money buy you true happiness? can money buy you time? can money buy you life?
Just for that extra few pieces of paper, humans are willing to sacrifice their friends, their family. WHY? I really don't understand it. Is it because you wanna get a new shoe? You wanna get a new car? a new house? A new house for a family? A new car for a friend? How much will it cost you? How much did you actually spend on those objects? You actually spend more than what you think you spend.
You want money so badly? I will give all my money to you, take and leave. What is money so great about? Money money money, can you please disappear? I really can't help to see more victims of "friend abandoned for paper". In this world of business, the richest rule the world. But I will say, the poorest rule the world. So what if you are rich? If your maid does not clean your mess, what are you? If the rubbish dumpers don't collect your rubbish, what are you? You are nothing but a useless piece of shit. Humans are willing to kill for that piece of paper. Have humans gone out of their mind? or have I? You decide.

Money is Satan.

Look at the world yourself, look at it. You see what I'm trying to say?

I won't be the "modern human" even if I have to sacrifice my life. My last words will be, please do so, and be a shame of yourself.

I don't mind sacrificing my life as long as it is for the better. I will meant my words, for I am a human not born perfect.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

-,-"





Thursday, October 9, 2008

I LOVE MATHS

Maths maths maths... It is the best.

I love maths,Maths maths maths... It is the best.
you love maths,
let all go and kill the nerds,
throwing numbers to them,
they went crying for help,
no more nerds to compete with.

=)

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Major surgery by Dr. Gee






I forgot what is the name of this surgery. It's something to do with veins. Because of diabetes, this guy needs to had one of the vein joined to another. If i'm not mistaken, it is artery vein.

Minor surgery by Dr Wong.





Sunday, September 28, 2008

David Hie's birthday party.

I wanna eat too... =(
yea yea... fooooood! =)
Start digging everyone!! ...... Dig for what? -.-
........................................................................dunno what to say.
Posers...
Another pose..
Quick.. get him into the car... with a smile on your face...=.="
oo la mak... darn big man the cup.... 0.0
Aiyor..... Girls girls girls guy.... =.="
Time for food guys.... =)
Where is my share??? They took it all.. =(
Another one.. =.="

Classic cars..... WOOOHOOO...!!





These are some classic cars that I saw on road while driving. All these cars are above 35 years old. =)

Friday, September 26, 2008

aiyor......

aiyor.... blogger cannot upload pics straight from computer.... haih... sad case.

Monday, September 1, 2008

My life??

DULL AS USUAL!!!

Nothing much is happening. Still all on my own, walking around.
All by myself... No one special came in. Not much friends to mix around with.

Ignored by people. People think that I am stupid. They think that I am an idiot. They think that I am nobody.
And when they really need help, they'll come begging after you. -.-"
I think I realise it, living in a life, means being on your own. Just be yourself, you don't have to care about others. Don't have to bother about what they do, how they do it, what they want, what they have.

Risking your own life to save others. Most of the people will not risk their life for someone else. All they do is just say and forget about it. Our life are not movies, it is real life. You risk it, you lost it. So, majority will save themselves first. For example, if our college building goes on fire, the bells ring, the alarm sounds, the water starts pouring, people screaming, rushing their way out. Who would wanna rush halfway and turn back to help someone you don't know? To help someone you hate? Now think again.

SO... WATCH WHAT YOU SAY.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

My days are limited.

Arghh... My condition is getting worst, I don't know how long more I can last. My bones are spoiling. My calcium rate is low.. So low that it puts me in a category that is the same as a 90 year old guy. -,-" I need to do something before it's too late, but at the same time, I don't wanna let my family know so much about it. This sucks.

I have to learn how to let her go. I have to try to live a life without her. Even with her around, I have to try to avoid her. But of cause if she's in trouble, I have to help her lah.

I hope that I can live this life up to 70. That's all I want.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

life goes on...

Call me doctor, I charge double. Call me friend, I charge normal. Call me Cher, I discount 10%. Call me Matthew, I discount 20%. That's my rate. =)

People leaving to find a new life. I'm staying to continue my life. We seperate to walk own life. Life has many roots, that connect us to every part of the world. Roots that lead us to choices. Roots that lead us to difficulty. Roots that lead us to easiness. But my root.... I don't know where it leads me to. It doesn't lead me to choices, difficulty, nor easiness. I don't know what root is leading me to what root. It's just too much roots, so much that you see a world of cables.
My life....... I don't know what I wanna say about it. It's just either this or that, no these nor those.
My life will go on, because you gave me a meaning to live on.

Let It Be... Let it be...

Thinking about her everyday is not a good idea. Of cause I also want her, but I think... the most important thing is that she is still here. No matter where she is, no matter what she becomes, as long as she still exist in this world, my life will go on and on. It's not important to have her by my side, as long as she is around, it is good enough. Nothing more I can ask for. Nothing less I want.
Like how a soilder war to protect his country. Like how a soilder war for his past friends. Like how a soilder war to protect someone they love. As they say, " never give up until the last drip of your blood."
We never know where hope is-we never know where truth is-we never know where love is. ONE DAY... one day... we will find it. It will come before you even know about it. I will say," If you keep running to find it, it will hide and run further. Therefore, we will never find it."